The Finishing Line

Met up with kor who took me for breakfast and gave me my belated birthday present. Thank you. Lots of hugs =)

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1)Take responsibility for words we say Because whether having the intention or not, an inflicted pain, is still painful, and saying sorry won't make things the same again.

2)Communication works out misunderstandings Lack of communication causes unresolved problems, wrongly deciphered matters, and results in conflict in the end. However if one party chooses not to, even when you have all the good intentions in the world, it will still go not conveyed and it will still ultimately results in misunderstandings.

3)Help can only be appreciated when others appreciate Even if it is your nature to reach out and help, if rejection comes, you just have to let it be and move on. Trying to make things better following your way won't work out better, because everything done has been done, and nothing can be changed if others does not even believe in helping out themselves. You can throw them a float when they are sinking, but it's their call to hold on to it.

4)Circumstances and challenges filters true friends Those who stood by since the start, those who go all out to resolve matters, those who sacrifice no matter what, those who respect and accept who you truly are. You know who you are =)

5)Family protects They are the people who defend you and forgive you and make sure everything will be okay no matter what. Their love is the only thing that keeps you awake and to move on so that you can focus on your future, not hold on to the hurtful past.

6)Decision making is life impacting The accumulation of decisions you have made in life makes you who you are today. And the decisions you make now will make you who you are in the future. You choose who you should trust and what kind of life you want and you don't turn back and regret, because life is short and every moment counts. You make decisions by respecting your principles and abiding God's will. Then you're on the correct track. It will be undeniable that challenges come and toughens you up, but as long as you are not tempted beyond your will, you'll be okay and God provides in every way.

7)Trust is a delicate thing Once broken, considered sold.

8)Forgiveness is God's greatest gift It would be non-beneficial for anyone to hold grudges hence forgiveness should be by generosity. And it exist in my nature, just requires time to let it pass.

9)Pray, because when men fail, God never forsakes The faith I have in God will lead me a fruitful life and I take everything as a challenge to be stronger, better and happier.

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I'm so over it.
I'm tired of everything. A break will be fine.
Then I'll be focusing on important stuff in life.
Life will be so awesome =) once you're single again.

Check Out The Countdown Box

Time flies. The last moment, I am still fighting the dilemma of choosing colleges, the time spent shopping like a madwoman in Pavilion, the only thing to worry is about where to have lunch. Now it's about the REAL LLB exams in which the schedule was out and stuck on the main notice board yesterday. Where it took me by fright and I nearly stumbled when walking down the stairs, obviously still in shocked mode.

Honestly, I am DEAD scared. No joke. I may walk around as if I know a lot but actually law is something you can never finish studying. So it's about how concise and complete you can cram whatever you have learned into a sixteen page answer within three hours. Which is something I lack: practice. And it's just not the only thing I lack. I am scared because I am unprepared. I know very little as I missed out classes here and there and I do very little research. Well, not that I will fail but definitely it would require more effort to score. Sighs.

It was quite a while I found this fire burning passion to excel hence I stayed in college to revise and research but unfortunately the fire died quite shortly because it was tiring and temptations took over. Now I regret for not persevering enough because if I were to take the extra mile then, it would have made a difference now. So I promise myself to push my physical and mental abilities to the extreme for these 120 remaining days. Doesn't matter if it requires sacrifice, pain or fatigue. Fun time has ended long ago and I had more than enough of play time, and now, it's time to get work done. Yay! I have to feel happy for myself for loving law=)


The enthusiasm starts by pulling out books and spreading across notes. Hopefully it lasts. Work! work! work!!


My customised revision calendar for January. I photostated for each member in my revision group, with the hope that they appreciate my hard work.

I pray hard for success. Because if I don't do well, who will? Hahahaha, that's a bit syok sendiri. But I have the confidence in myself to score. I just have this little philosophy about kiasu-ness. Maybe you might be wondering why I am talking all about my studying and revision progress and maybe you will be asking why I am telling everyone in the world what I am and will be going to revise later on. Maybe you might also be wondering why I show my notes to my friends, my research work, my timetable, like sharing almost everything. I just think that many would believe that studying is personal, and definitely it is, and exams is about competition, which obviously isn't. The kiasu-ness in a lot of people rendered me in quite a blur state, but actually I don't blame people for being a little self centered when it comes to things like this. I however would beg to differ, because I believe in synergising success, the power of multiplying outcome by cooperation of input. So i wouldn't hesitate to share whatever I know with other fellow classmates, eventhough they do not do the same to me. I had thought about how unfair things would get before, but it came to me that, whatever way people behave, they should not change the way I act. Because if I in turn wanted revenge, and act equally kiasu, and in the end, I would be one of them. Haha, Hui Ting is no such person. I know if I have a generous heart, I will get rewarded accordingly. God works in miraculous ways. =)

I am in a pretty good mood today. Maybe it's the long nap I had this afternoon. Maybe it's the fact I've finally got back the enthusiasm for studies. Maybe it's the inner peace I managed to achieve after struggling within issues of blending in and principles I vow to stand by. Maybe it's after watching too much supernatural. lolz.

Nausea~

We had rat dissection today as a part of our Biology Practical. Everyone was very happy and excited about it. People were spotted polishing their dissection tools a week before.

XD

Basically these are what they require us for doing the dissection.


Dissection kit, Surgical gloves and mask.

Aaaaaand the rats!


White mice preserved in formalin. And mind you, it stinks! With the 3ply mask, I can still smell the stinking retching rats soaked in the formalin.


Sincerely I think that they have been preserved for decades. They looked horribly like those mice I have seen since the start of the year in the lab.

Firstly we were to let the dead rat lie on the board and pin it, then dissect it dorsal ventrally. Everyone is using a great deal of energy to open up the rats' for limbs because the formalin stiffened the whole thing. I practically just banged the rat on the table and pried it open with my bare hands after a few attempts to open it up with my forceps failed.

And suddenly 'CRACK'. I broke an arm.


It looked like that when we are about to examine the thorax. Yvonne accidentally cut through the heart and blood splattered out. Bloody hell! =D


Yvonne, me and Michelle.

Moving to the abdomen, this was what I got.


Hey, my dissection is one of the best in the class, because my cuts were all clean and direct.

Then for 'extra knowledge' purposes, they urged me to dissect the genitals. Yvonne's and Boon Fei's idea.


These are a pair of testicles. They are from the rat I was dissecting. Eww~~ Yvonne was so excited and keep telling everybody to press them.

Speaking about scientists.

After that, we discarded the dead with dignity. 32 mice sacrificing their souls to the enrichment of the scientific world, boardening the minds of yet another batch of Biology students, who were still naive and curious.

Tour de Palace of Justice

The last time I stepped foot to Putrajaya was during last three years' National Day Celebration. But today, we followed the 6th form council's organised school trip to this federal territory, its transformation towards a smart governmental management centre, undeniably cool.

Our destination was the Palace of Justice. As we sixth formers learn about our country's law and order in Pengajian Am, this place is the best option the school can offer. Previously they used to bring us to the Parliament which is only steps away from school. But this year, things got a little different.


The Palace of Justice: The symbol of justice of Malaysia.

Not wasting the moment, we camwhored as usual. =)


Each of us stood on each pole bearing state flags. I got Kelantan. Kok Weng got Terengganu, therefore he can drive a Mercedes instead of a Perdana. LOL

The place is really grand. Imagine the megabucks they collected from tax payments to build the place. The architecture is Islamic-Arabic, with dome like structures and archways shaped like mosques. :0 The pillars, archways and floors were made of marble.


Marble world.....0_o


The Islamic influenced ceiling.


Archways: fully lit.

While we were happily taking pictures then we only found out that we were not supposed to do so. in fact, if you are 21 and above, then you only have the rights to enter the Palace of Justice.


Ok, keep away the camera. uh-huh....

After a briefing held in the conference room (conference room for judges..imagine us sitting on places the judges are sitting..XD), we went to the library. Since no photos were allowed, so I did not took any. But there are a great deal of law books and some are really old. Zi Qin was searching for some particullar law to sue teachers. LOL. Michelle and I found one in the defamation column. =)

Then, we visited the museum.


I only knew what is a mace then. It represents the authority and prestige of the court. No court can assemble without the mace in present.


The wig everbody's been asking about since the start of the trip.

And the best part was, we got to witness a real court case. It's really unlike those we see on TV. The defendant and the plaintiff took turns to talk politely and there were a great deal of notes shuffling. And there were 5 judges. Even though everyone is Malaysians they still used English as a medium. I thought they were damn particular about this language thing. The case they were appealing is a drug trafficking case. It was really interesting. Everyone was so keen to listen and pay attention. We even went around asking the lawyers about terms we did not understand during the 30-minute break.

Again, no photos allowed.

In the end, everybody learnt a great deal of things and we are clear about our country's justice system.


A trip worth going!!
PS: It's only RM5.

Under My Skin

Seriously, I think I am going nuts. On this humid night, when everyone are dozing their heads off in a fully air-cond room, I am forced to stick my butt on a chair, and bury my head in a pile of Biology books.

So, I told myself, never mind. My mission today, is to finish cellular respiration. And after that, I can just close my eyes and dream about paradise.


The first part was the aerobic respiration and anaerobic respiration crap that I had learnt during SPM. So 5 minutes, that part, done. The next thing was bedazzling. It was glycolysis. (OK, I never paid attention during class.) I have no idea what it was. It's something like a flow chart with a lot of branches.

See I am so hardworking, I did my own notes.

Glycolysis is the process of converting glucose to pyruvic acid. And pyruvic acid will be further decarboxylased and oxidised to form ATP, NADH, FADH2, and carbon dioxide. And ATP will go to the electron transport system and it will produce water and oxygen as end products.


My own notes for Kreb's cycle. The cycle which involves the conversion of Pyruvic acid(3 Carbon compound)to Citric Acid(6C), then isocitric acid(6C) and then further oxidative decarboxylation to alpha-ketoglutaric acid(5C), succinic acid(4C), Fumaric Acid(4C), Malic Acid(4C), Oxaloacetic Acid(4C) as a complete cycle, catalysed by lots of enzymes such as pyruvate dehydrogenase, isocitrase dehydrogenase, fumarase...etc etc...

Thanks to Mr. Krebs.

He got a Nobel Prize for discovering this mechanism.

Next is the electron transport system.
The diagram from my textbook. This, I have not read yet because all those circles and cycles are driving me up the wall.


So, in the end, what we get is energy, CO2 and water. I remember Michelle flinging her hands:"That's it? After one month of boring classes, what we got is just 3 end products?"

Haha...See, God create wonders. Every cell in our body has mitochondria(plural of mitochondrion), which means we have zillions of mitochondria performing the same job everyday. Every cell in our body requires energy. Brain cells need energy for us to think. Muscle cells need them for locomotion. Nerve cells need energy for generating impulses. If any cell in our body refuses to undergo cellular respiration, our entire body will shut down, hence, we get sick, or worse, paralysed.

One cell to build a tissue. One tissue to build an organ. One organ to maintain a system. One system to sustain an organism.

Isn't life amazing?