Firstly I felt life has been swinging from one extreme to the another, people and incidents happened and changes perspectives. Not all are bad and it has given me the opportunity to see another side of many things, people and myself. I do thank God for everything i am and I have today, not to say I have the perfect life. But I am blessed with lots of good things which some are over and above my needs, hence the need of giving thanks. Of course I do fault in the run of life, where I learn to feel the pain of the injury and heal myself. Lessons mature me, and yes, they do. =)
Secondly I am absolutely sure I had made the correct decision of learning law six months ago when I was in a forked dilemma of choosing between two equally prospective course. The offer from UM to do English Language and Linguistics was my first choice in my application and UM was my dream university ever since high school. Plus UM is one of the top public universities around, and chances of getting in were not coincidental. Most importantly besides all the promotion of UM is that languages and literature is my passion, and one of my strengths. Surprisingly enough my family were totally on the support of me pursuing this course. Seem ideal right? Yet I chose to do law in a private college with zero knowledge of the subject, with my 90% of my friends then questioning my choice, objective in nature, with the 100% certainty of losing campus life that I once dream living in, with my family doubting the credibility of my option. Big deal and so much for reading Robert Frost. I do not deny the fact at first everything was jumbled up and depressing. I constantly found myself doubting myself, plus with all my best friends gone, new environment and new circle of friends. But today as I justify myself for making the correct decision, I do say I am confident enough. Though I lose campus life but I have city life. I still do languages as my passion, by allocating time for writing poetry as I used to do. Law is good for me as I find myself enjoying the subject, and I am having ambitions in the litigation field, seeing myself as somebody in the future. I make new friends as well, and I am happy with them. Lots of things fall back into order and it actually turns out to be better relatively. I have a balanced life and I am enjoying every moment of it.
Thirdly I truly thank God for my current circle of friends. They made me very comfortable while I socialise with them. They are people who do not judge and they accepted people as they do. There were lots of secrets in my life that I held shame upon where I did not mention to any single person, not even my closest friends. The reason was that my closest friends had the kind of upbringing I knew very well I had to select stuff to tell them. Not to say I do not trust them. They are friends for life and I love them very much. It is like another kind of relativeness, difficult to explain. But with them I am able to share most of my long hidden problems and issues with them and I receive assuring responses. With that I am grateful, sincerely. To those who read my blog you know who you are and this is my muacks to all of you. =)
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Back to recent stuff which happened over the weekends.
We went back to JB by train to celebrate grandma's grand birthday. These people actually booked a bus to carry the entire kampung's population to the restaurant. Grand leh.
First time booking tickets for train. Excited nyah nyah~ We took the night train where you can actually lie down and sleep through the night. Not exactly 5 star comfortable but definitely better than seats, and you know our KTMs.
Sis with the over excited-ness like jakun keluar hutan. =___=''
Snaps during the celebration.
Bro Mum me sis.
Cake.
The paternal side of my family. I rarely see them and I didn't knew it actually grew bigger, the family I mean. More new little members ^^ I have two twin cousins who I did not knew they existed. But come to it we never really like keep constant touch with them since Dad died and plus Johor is like so far from KL.
And these two kiddos were darn cute okay? lol. Totally in love with them.
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I actually managed to meet up with Zi Qin since her uni is nearby my kampung. She stayed overnight and went to the celebration as well. We talked like mad and Zi Qin watched TV like there is no tomorrow. Reason, no entertainment means in hostel. Grandma keep asking me why Zi Qin was the one who got a uni in Johor but not me. So that I can balik kampung as regular as possible. lol.
And I de-toured UTM and her hostel as well. ATC is like pathetically 1/200 of UTM in size. Zi Qin say it's rare to get friends from KL over to UTM. I agree. I do not have the everyday chance to go Johor let alone UTM. Priceless, and hence the photo. =)
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The moot court competition is driving me nuts. Mah Sue Ann is super stressed up constituting me to be influenced as well. I am actually deeply sorry for getting a massive hang over this morning and spoiling her initial plans for doing the moot stuff. But I was very happy we six mooters get to chill in the student's lounge this afternoon to talk about stupid stuff that happened and all. Whooperliciously amusing. Laugh till I tak de suara.
All the best for the competition. Add oil everybody. =)
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