Thursday, June 12, 2008

The Pending Peace

Shin Peih taught me this.
When you are angry, countdown from 100, then you will feel better.

Okay, 100,99,98,97,96,95.....

The teacher banged her fists on the table while talking to me, as if I never contributed anything to the Chinese Society.

89,88,87,86,85....

I am the president, yet I am facing difficulties with issues like cooperation within members.

73,72,71,70,69.....

Everyone gave me reasons like they want to study, focus on their studies. As if I do not need to. They are so selfish. I cannot even make them move.

54,53,52....

They are also my friends. Sometimes, I have to take things personally. Because, not everyone in the whole world can understand that I do things with clear division between friends and team members. They get offended easily.

43,42,41,40...

When I scolded them, they get offended. If I do not do so, they get too relaxed. When things are successful, I thank them and everyone shared the victory. If things get undone, I get the blame.

36.35.34....

They did not even think that they can lighten my burden. They were so blinded by the sole aim to excel in studies. but they failed to think about the holistic aspect of the true meaning of education.

29,28,27,26...

When I shouted at them, I do not wish to do so. but I had no choice. But even if I shouted, things will never be different. They will go back to their so called comfortable lifestyle, and the only difference is, they will hate me.

19,18,17...

They talked bad behind me. I know. but I don't care.

13,12,11,10...

I realised that i am surrounded by self centered people. They were brought up that way. I can't change them.

5,4,3...

Just forget about it.

2,1.

Tomorrow will be a better day.


Hoping so.