After worn and torn form a day of roller-coastering events and rush of emotions, I am here, now, finally relaxed and free.
I place myself in front of the screen, glancing at the clock. It's 1.30am. With everyone asleep, the house is finally quiet. Or rather, way too quiet. I sit in silence, waiting for the page to load, enjoying my moment in solitary joy. All connections to the outside world were closed. My msn was down, my phone died, out of battery.
The only way to break the silence was to listen to some songs in youtube, as I sighed heavily. I ran my fingers to my wet hair, clicking on some long viewed files. There was it, photos, and photos, where they hold those past memories. I stopped by those familiar faces, closed my eyes, and let my mind wander upon some of those fondest moments. If I should have completely shut you down, I cannot assure you that, because you're indeed someone very special to me, even we're already apart. Distance and differences made sure that we're apart. We were both too vulnerable to that challenge,and thus this is the payback we get. You'll always be reserved as somebody special in my life, and whatever you do, you cannot change that fact.
The Hui Ting that once you have known is dead and gone. She has become a better person, and she deserves someone better. Credits goes to you, because you were that trigger.
Thriving Ivory never sounded so emo until now. I brushed my fingers on the screen and looked away. The fan shuffled some papers on the beside table.
You can tell me all your thoughts, about the stars that fill polluted skies
And show me where you run to, when no one's left to take your side
But don't tell me where the road ends, cause I just don't wanna know
~Thriving Ivory, Angels on The Moon
I got this words from someone's blog: "Can you please let me go because I want to explore and I want the chance to find someone better. Can you just please let go? You're restricting me."
I salute your determination.
*I'm like doing daily posts....Oh my God, I'm sooooo free.